in any case, by any chance,
if you're trying to spite me,
trying to bring me down,
trying to show me you're living off better w/o me,

YOU WON. HANDS DOWN.
can you please stop already?

still, we foolishly keep holding onto nothing.
exposed ourselves to heart aches after heart aches. 
no wonder they say love is blind.

seen and heard too much of this scary world.
that wall built in the heart just goes thickier and thicker. 

i love/hate you. seriously i feel foolish but wtf can i do?
my heart doesnt listen to me anymore.

you' ve no idea how much love i gave.

you dont know, 
and you never will.

oh my god, who am i kidding?
everything happens for a reason & i'm trying damn hard to reason it out in my head.
that kind of fear, pain and anger is so strong and so frickin' scary.

i think i'm trying too hard to prove that i'm leading a happier life. 
seriously, im so tired.
so tired of reminding myself to be happy and all.
like its almost impossible to feel good without convincing myself into it.

how come its hurting too when its healing?

 maybe its time to hide everything here instead. 
feeling sucky enough already so what's next?